To this year, who soon will fade

Somebody once told me the world is a scary place, and I should never really let my guard down.
"Although you're intelligent, you're a softy and you tend to not use your brain at times."
Did I listen? NO! Of course I didn't.
I let friends come first and let my responsibilities go, I postponed it, meaning to go back and see them through. But time came and went and I never saw them through. I guess I thought it didn't matter. It just didn't make sense not to live for fun. As we said, my so called friends and I; Live by the rules and your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb, so, what's the fun in that?
There's just to much to do, so much to see. If you worry about the rules then how could you possibly see it all? So what's the harm in taking the back streets a few times?
You'll never know if you don't jump in. After all it's your life and you can do as you'd like. You're the Rock Star, so get the show on, get paid and all that jazz. Only know-it-all's break the mode.



We were fools and flouting on clouds, we were bound to fall down sooner or later. However I never expected it to be such an abruptly fall as it came to be, we knew it couldn't continue.
The world is a cold place and they say it gets colder. Not a place for anyone who find them self to be naive and soft at heart. But the meteor men beg to differ, "judging by the hole in the satellite picture, it's getting warmer" The world is becoming a better place they say?



I couldn't believe it. I need to get myself away, needed some time to think. To bad that time took to long. When it was over, and I my self was ready, it was to late. To late to go back. Nothing to be done about that. What a concept, everyone could use a little change but we can realise it to late, and then there'll be no turning back. No, back to the rules and to hitting the ground running, if needed before we see the light.



Didn't make sense to live for fun, not any more, not if it's fun at any expense. Sure, your experiences grow, but nothing more. So much to do, so much to see? Well you'll have all your life, so why risk it? Slow down? I've lived to much.


I was slowing down for a while, and I'd thought I was going to slow down for good, but no. Life is suppose to be for fun. I see that now, and above all mysterious. Live for fun! Any thing can happen, so if you dread the bad, then how can you possibly experience the good? You just have to make the best of it. Jump in! The bad, for better or for worse, changes you. And for one, I think change is good, it led to this years outcome. Although you don't realise that a change is needed before you hit the ground, the downfall can led to a higher uprising then the change needed before....



For me the downfall was tough. And the time after was terrible, but refreshing and reassuring. Glad I found my self, in the worst of times(subjectively speaking) or rather that the change didn't find me before the downfall. My only regret is that it took to long to realise that the downfall was for the best. To much time wasted looking back. The last year has been a goldmine, and it made me realise that my past, present and future construct the "I" I'll always be, and am now. Let's see what there is to be done and to be viewed. 'cause the world is no longer cold or a scary place, it has grown brighter with every ounce of this year.