Snowingly hoped

Pablo Picasso once said "Every act of creation is first an act of destruction " it couldn't be more accurate for the week me fellow students and me self are undergoing. This is suppose to be our week of absence without leave. So much to do, but that's IB for you. We write then shred our work then rewrite parts for then to delete half of it.

Nonetheless, this night must have been divine cause finally the snow fell and lay down a blanket of white across me street ^^ And me city, though I doubt it is still consistence in sweet white the closer to town you get. I can recall sweet childhood memories of small feet running out as the first snow fell even before the day of me birthday befell in the middle of October. However this didn't last long cause the time of the first snow has become later and later..last year it did fall in the last days of October too, but it was swept away with the water that fallowed. Not to mention of course that there wasn't any snow on Christmas Eve last year, that always kill the spirit, in me anyhow. There is one day a year that there ought to be snow ad that is Christmas Eve, especially since we live in Norway: the way north: the northern way.

Looking out the window now I hope this will last till the next main fall of snow, but I am realistic enough, to realise that it probably will be washed away some time in the coming weeks. Yet looking out my window it is snowing, it gives hope.

Rotten days

This is suppose to be obvious, but seems like it need mentioning anyways...

If your foot is swollen; hold it high, above said heart.
If your foot is left down; you'll end up with sausage toes....

Seriously, I am walking around with a monstrous foot, and it is taunting the normal one! Anyhow, in its existence say like since Sunday, for sure, it has not liked being used for walking. go figure I try since it is a FOOT; a reluctance too be set 90 degrees in relation to the leg makes the left foot of mine useless. Did I also mention that it is swollen to almost twice its original size, or the colouring of the blue/purple and yellow/blue spectrum of the colour schemes? (Though not green, no, not rotten yet for fungous) But I experienced a tremendous victory to today. As I put my mind to moving the useless leg, I sat for hours trying to move the toes; before suddenly the toes moved. One by one; first the boss, then the one next to it, then the pinky, and so the ones in between. Me mind won over the swollen defences of the body^^ mohahaha. Wait probably not a good thing, or a good idea for that matter. Probably in the same league as walking with the dissmuttered foot from Vika to Frogner after it got injured. But what the heck? It walked and worked then, but after a nap it went whiny on me. Still today my mind won over matter. Yey me^^ Also it has been confirmed that it isn't broken only dislocated and swollen as a result of "severe trauma".... Bah! Never stopped me before I kept rolling by as always and will continue doing so^^

Insomnia by the hours

Time: nothing but a concept created by man.
A name of the phenomonon where light turn to dark as a mechanism turning in harmonic motion. A name we gave so to better comprihend why day turn away into night.
For me: it passes ever so slowly at times but is really going by faster and faster as time grow. Though the day becomes longer, time never passes as quick as when you sitt all night trying to solve your homework. Suddenly, without comprehention, as an hour flew by who stole time? and where was it taken?

Math ....blæ

Well now it is set, math internal is now due on friday and i hate computer graphing!!!! It is driving me mad! Damn assigment, easy enough but so annoying when the technology part doesn't work!
Well that be todays rant^^ I have to admit i rather like keeping buisy with people and stuff^^ Stuff being a lot! Can't be bothered to go into it, but yey art is going well and people are funky these days^^

More from within will befall
You must wait and see
cause time is then not now
Lets just enjoy the now
move around in space
Your time is well spent then

Family

Now the family dinner is over and talks have been made about the wide world. They look at me still as their little naive girl who pretend to be more then her age promise; I am and they know, but somewhere it is lost.

eighteen

Then the day was finally here, my becoming of age. Funny isn't it, little me is finally an adult. But what difference will it make? Haven't I had acted maturely enough for a life time by now? I wish we could grow back down again, though becoming of age does have it's perks^^ I can drink without the guilt.....yeah never happend; but i can buy stuff myself^^,

00:58 this morning I was in the company of me favourite person in the whole wide world, an amazing woman. My grams of course, who's getting better^^

People came, drank, partied, ate, some pjucked, they slept, then left^^ A party is held on the behalf of the familiy you choose yourself, more so then for yourself.^^, I'm glad people had a nice time, or so it seems^^

October first

I was reminded of how i saw me life today.
" You always took pride in running in the autumn rain as october was landing at your door step. Made by the red leaves - you always plucked them up, collected them in your little shrine. Do you remember - Ina? "
My grams remembers well the past and near past, but the now that past a few minutes ago she seems to forget like the evolution have of men. Yes, I once went by the alias Ina. Now my alias is part of my name just not the full name of me birth. Nonetheless, I always blossomed in the falling summer and in the bitter, cold october bris. Truly as an autumn child. But autumn hasn't come in me life for many years. This year, however, I smile once more. Touble's behind me. Hope restored and growing within me. I don't understand why. Reason says calm down, watch out, but hearts never listen.

With the change in the wind when summer is at it's end and the bitter, chilled autumn the promise of change is in the air. - Thaun&Momom